I have a higher purpose in my few visits than to meet you.
It is the journey itself that is more exhilarating than the end destination. Time becomes flexible in my travels to meet
you as I think of the time we have spent together. Not the conversations we
had, but how they make me feel & how I hope they would make you.
People say that love is blind, and that when in love people
don’t see other things. I never could understand it, and it never happens to
me. I become conscious of everything around me. Of the wind that blows across
my face as I sit near the window of the train and how I remember you adjusting the
windswept bronze hair away from your eyes. Of the road on which the car runs and
our drives on it while your body jerked when there were potholes while your
bosom which reminds me of parabola and its equations jiggles on such roads. Of
the bread that you ate, and how your lips spread into a smile of delight after
they contorted themselves on it while you nibbled on the bread in glee.
My face betrays the high that I feel when I see your face for the first time on our meets. It makes me think of how obvious I become and wonder if you notice it. I like to notice things when we meet. The motion of your lips, the force with which you grip the spoon while you eat, the angle your legs make, and the curves of your body. How the expressions in your eyes change when I say something that makes you laugh, how you grip the handle of the door when you want to open it and clench your fingers about it. Gentle, yet determined. As if the door becomes an extension of yourself when you touch it, and there is no effort that you are applying to open it more than the effort you would take to move a step ahead yourself.
I like it when you start describing about what you do at
work. How you can get lost in explaining something because of how much enjoyed
being part of it. Part of creating something, of discovering something that was
till yesterday unknown to us and how you unravelled it. The joy of being good
at it, and not being sorry but passionate about it because it is what you want
to do and how you want to do and that no other reason would suffice. Makes me
think of how I feel like after a particularly tiring and productive day at work
gets done. That I would want to be with you and talk to you about it. I wouldn’t
want to teleport to your side to do that, no it would be too quick. I had this
idea once that I would have something like Tony Stark’s armour as part of my case,
which I would wear and fly up to meet you. Or maybe a blue lantern ring, that I
could use to fly so that I can even feel the wind blow across my face while I
fly to meet you.
One of these days I would like to take up one such trip to
meet you, and then not meet you at all. I would just enjoy the journey and go
to one of the places we would have, and sit all alone and amused at the possibilities
the moment presented. I could continue sitting there, and over a cup of coffee
write something like I am writing right now, or maybe through a stroke of
chance you would come in and see me and call me stupid for not telling you that
I had come.
I think of the moments just before leaving you. Of how I
wish that time actually were that flexible, and I could hold on to that moment when
we both embrace the finality of it, that we would both have to leave. I gather
that since neither of us have such a control over time, we continue to
appreciate such moments.
I. You.
this is exquisite. You've penned what so many may not be able to articulate. Those moments in a day that are so special along the journey.
ReplyDelete:) Thank you, my muse is exquisite, so I guess that feeling ebbed from her to my work
Delete"Exquisite" like said above, describes it. I loved loved loved reading this. Your smooth flow of words is enchanting.
ReplyDelete:) Thank You :)
DeleteMay I please choose the same word above? Exquisite. In all the delicacy that this word promises. And all the beauty it engulfs within and without. One touches the experience here. So tangible is this. The muse has to be special, even if it is an exquisite thought. :)
ReplyDeleteWhy thank you..
ReplyDeleteSometimes the things we do, are as good as the person who inspire us to do so
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ReplyDeleteJust those moments when you steel every second of her life (when you are with her) ... enjoyed reading it ...
ReplyDeleteamazing connection and creativity betwwen things man
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